letter uno

this is the beginning to a new me ive quit smoking this year which im proud of but before i get into accomplishments lets get an idea of where this is coming from. a childhood that i was raised in consisted of me living in the shadows of a younger sister that demanded all attention from my parents as well as always being forced to conform to the religion that i had no choice of joining so the over indulgence of simple pleasures began early. i was always a larger kid after my hyperthyroidism went into remission i had little freinds and the freinds i thought i had in high school nicknamed me tits because well i had em. curently i am at my heaviest weight in my entire life at 352 pounds my biggest fear is not a car wreck, not a gunshot wound to the head, its not seeing my kids grow up its getting diabetes or the biggest fear that i feel is near is a heart attack. i love crappy foods chicken wings, beer, mozerella stix, anything with over 100 grams of trans and saturated fat is my calling. but im not picky i will eat anything really. so a diet really isnt a problem. sticking to it is. moderation is. pizza can be healthy but not if you eat the whole thing with a pitche of beer chicken wings and breadsticks. so this morning at 2 am i woke up and exercized ya gotta start somewhere i guess and it seemed like the right time i did 10 pushups granted the execution was perfect but i did em, 20 crunch / situps and some mountain climbers. also a bit of stretching. so as my days go along i will update this and tell you what i did wron and right and would greatly appreciate any input the would be cunstructive. thanks!