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So as of last night I found out I am ctually heavier than I was 4 days ago at 356 I am seriously wondering why we all have to battle this disease and being an american I was bred into it so to cure myself I am asking some questions what has anyone heard of HCG. And if all I eat is celery how come I will die. I wishe there was an easy o but I know they're isn't I am such a team player and social person I honestly think this is going to be the hardest feat of my life I wish I had a teamate and not some skinny ho that needs to drop 10 pounds I needs a fattie like me to be there to help support to work out with to motivate me and me moivate them this is going to be something I will have to be aware of every second of everyday until I change my way of thinking and it scares the shit out of me that I'm alone. I know I have support in general but I need someone on my ass every minute so I can learn this is not an excuse thise is a desire to change my lifestyle I need to know what baby steps to take before I can jog without dislocating my knee maybe ill look into the y does anyone else have a membership there? I really like weight lifting but have never really done cardio and what about suppliments? Protien condroitin glucosamine creatine. If not used properly can all cause weight gain. And I don't really wanna be a crackhead they're too dirty. I kinda just neeed advice and coaching tgo get the ball rolling. But I dunno I can be positive if someone is there to listen. not to bring those down on the same position im just seeking help ya know... and ps anyone know how to send this from your phone? i get too mant letters and it sends as an mms then doesnt post.